April 7th of this year I turned the much dreaded twenty two and I've now dignosed myself with what I call the "22 blues." Why is it that myself and many of my friends that have turned the double two feel so damn old? When you turn 18 it's all "hell yeah I'm an adult and I can purchase porn" and 21 comes along and it's all "hell yeah I can officially drink alcohol legally even though I've been drinking for the past five years." Then here comes 22 and you're all like "shit I should really have my life together now." I just feel so stuck in the middle of trying to escape my young adulthood and trying to make that leap into being an actual adult. I think it's more the psychological part of letting go of my youth and embracing a new phase in my life that quite frankly scares the hell out of me. My issue isn't that I don't want to pay bills or have a 9-5 job it's the fact that I have no idea where time has gone. I feel like just yesterday I was an insecure brace-faced 14 year old entering high school and then I blinked and I'm 22 contemplating what I want to do with the rest of my life. I'm most likely, like others, over thinking my age but it still doesn't stop that incurable feeling that if I blink again I'm going to be fourty.