I've got the Monday blues and that's okay. It may be harder for me than others to push myself to workout or finish my list of things I need to get done but I will always be a work in progress. I'm glad I can be aware of my faults and that I do try to make them better. I'm being sappy and I'm wining which is everything I hate but I know my worries and my "blues" are felt by many people other than just myself so maybe spilling my inner thoughts will let someone else know that they aren't the only one as cliche as it sounds. Cause hell, I sure do feel like the only one feeling a certain way at times." 

Right after writing this my main question for myself was "What can I do to make ME happier with myself?" I wrote down a list. 

1) Be proactive 

2) Workout 

3) Read more 

4) Set goals 

5) Stay organized 

So, I came to the conclusion that when my life had more order to it, it seemed to make me happier. I immediately made a weekly agenda. Now I have always been what you could call "A to-do list whore" which just basically means I love to write lists of things I need to get done because I have a million things that go through my mind and it helps organize my thoughts. I started writing a short list for each day of the week. The difference is I started writing a list of actually achievable things I could get done. I've found that I would set unrealistic goals for myself so it was just a set up for failure and not feeling great about myself. I also have set up a schedule so I can workout every day. I re-organized my room (which is impressive because my room is pretty organized) and I made meal preps for myself which I've done before since I'm hardly home and don't ever have time to eat proper meals. 

Fast forward two weeks to today and I'm slowly adjusting. The first week is always kind of the easiest cause I was pumped to start a new routine. The hard part is making it a habit. I haven't been perfect but I'm applauding myself because I've done a pretty good job. I'm trying to applaud the small things I accomplish for myself, as hard as it is, but I'm still setting more goals for myself. For instance, not falling out of my routines during the weekends. After my exhausting week it's so easy just to veg and become one with my bed but it makes it that much harder on myself when Monday rolls around if I completely fall out of my routine for two days. This doesn't mean I can't ever relax it just means I need to continually accomplish what I need to get done then set time to relax. 

Like I said before, I will always be a work in progress but I took my moment of feeling down and turned it into a positive. I'm learning to except my faults and strengths. I will always be a perfectionist, I will procrastinate at times, I will never love to workout, and I will never be a fan of Monday's. 

I'm no expert on life so this may work for myself and some may be shaking their heads reading this but that's okay cause I can't see anyone behind their computer screens or cell phones or whatever electronic you prefer to use. So, I'll just pretend that everyone read this and I helped change their life cause that makes me feel better unless you really feel the need to hate on my life choices and comment that you're actually shaking your head then I will actually know. So don't do that or do cause I won't change you haters. 

Have a fab week & cheers to maybe a better Monday next week.