It's funny looking at the split of people who went to high school with you and those who decided to stay right in their hometown. Or those who've ventured off into different parts of Michigan and then the people who leave. You see the different growth in people when they leave or stay and it's not to say one is better than the other but the change is different. You're surrounding yourself with new people when you leave, new ideas, atmospheres and it creates a partially new person. For some, staying around family forever is vital and I respect that but I respect myself to know that I would regret not making myself vunorable. The best way to do that is take yourself away from everything and everyone you've  known. It forces myself and my boyfriend, to be dependent on eachother and not in an unhealthy way but one that is mutual trust. 

I am enthralled to see what this state has to offer for us and I'm excited to share it. I've felt stuck for so long, feeling like I was at a standstill because I wasn't in a place where I wanted to be. I feel free. 

They were right. 

*May be some spoliers* Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I don't really know where to start because the movie is so flawed and poorly directed/poorly scripted/poor/sucked/all around just bad, that I need to organize my thoughts.

Okay, so I'll start with the positives and what could have potentially been a great film if they had done everything they didn't do. So, my favorite character was Deadshot and not for all the right reasons. I will note, that I read somewhere, Deadshots eye gadget was on the wrong eye. That would have bothered me if I had read the comics but I hadn't and trust me that should be the least of your worries when it come to this film. It was basically Will Smith but in a Deadshot costume. Which is great and why he was my favorite because it was all of the Will Smith humor everyone loves  and also his backstory was the most compelling and relatable if you will compared to the other characters. But is that really what we wanted from a super heroish character? Not really, personally. 

Also, Harley Quinn was interesting to watch but I wanted to see more of her and the backstory between her and the joker. 

Which brings me to Jared Letos performance of the joker. Well, it was good but he was hardly present in the film. He was in serveral flashbacks and the rest were the EXACT SCENES THAT WERE IN THE TRAILER. NO JOKE (pun not intended) SCENE BY SCENE PRETTY MUCH THE ONLY SCREEN TIME HE HAD WAS SEEN IN THE TRAILER. Did the all caps make myself clear? 

Which brings me to my next rant and basically part of the reason I'm taking up my time to even "review" this movie. I'm mad. Genuinely mad at Hollywood for there lack of creativity, poor script writing, the marketing team and DC comics! Why can't you get it right? I will applaud one group out of those I've named. The marketing team. Wow, you really had me fooled with those trailers. At least you brought the audience in to see it and then had all their hopes and dreams of what they thought they were going to see crushed and destroyed. The entire beginning of the movie was the trailer with a few extra scenes thrown in there. 

I don't understand how or who concluded the direction of this film was a good idea because whoever gave it a green light, you are not the brightest bulb.

 *SPLOIER ALERT* Why in gods name when introducing a group of semi-super heros would you make a villain with powers of almost a God? It right away sets up the movie for failure because it makes it so unbelievable. For those confused, Enchantress is the villian in this movie who is a witch from thousands of years ago who has taken over someone's body (I won't get into specifics) and basically wants to destroy the world because the humans turned against them and wants to build a "machine" to destroy them all. I am hitting myself with a book right now because I am so dumbfounded of how utterly stupid and unoriginal of a plot line that is. Really?!!!! She even says the line "My spell is now complete." You know that emoji with the straight across eyes and straight mouth? That is my face right now and everything I'm feeling. I just can't believe how utterly boring the scriptwriting was and how unoriginal this plot line was. 

Do they even realize that simplicity is actually more desirable? It also would have saved them millions of dollars to not have EVERYTHING I MEAN EVERYTHING with CGI. Also, the most no-brainer route they SHOULD have gone, was to make the joker the villain. But no, they wanted to "trick" the audience by making a horrible movie and also teasing in the trailers that the joker would be the villan. In actuallity they chose the worst kind of villain that doesn't even speak a lick of English and has no motive really to end the human race. Bravo, take a bow and now run because I'm about to show you what a real villan looks like. 

All around just disappointed in the lack of creativity and simplicity of the film. Christopher Nolan. Please show them the light. Or darkeness. Whatever it is you do, please do it for every super hero film. 

Sincerely,

Every DC, Marvel, super hero fan out there 

With that I'm giving this film a D+ which is harsh but the fact that I was deceived makes me angry. So, ha! That will teach you film makers a lesson! An unknown, spec of dust in a sea of a million bloggers gave you a D+! I hope you think about what you've done. Okay, I need to get back to something productive.

Tune in for more rants coming soon to blog near you...

Jen xo

I'm not one to take things personally. I have a very laid back personality and usually let things slide off my back but for some reason this one didn't want to slide off as easily. Instead it went the opposite way and festered into my brain and hatched unpleasant thoughts about myself and for what reason? 

I'm sick of being valued by what I've accomplished or what some would appoint as lack thereof. Some little remark that was made to me, (mind you, it wasn't even a direct remark to me) and maybe could have been unintentional but nevertheless made me feel insignificant.  

I sometimes even feel judged, by people I consider to be closest to me. I too, am guilty of this. I will always be guilty of this. Everyone will be, even the ones who consider themselves "the least judgmental person," has judged someone in their life. 

I am nanny. I am going to school. Honestly, it took me longer to ground myself and figure out what I wanted to do but I've come to terms with that. I used to beat myself up for not being finished with school by now and it kills me but at the end of the day it doesn't define me. Yes, I watch children full-time. Is it my passion? Is it something I want to be doing in the future? Absolutely not. I have different goals and aspirations. Yet again, that doesn't define me. I work hard. Regardless of the endless comments about how easy my job is, I let those remarks roll off my back because they don't walk in my shoes or see what I do everyday. I also know my job has a lot of perks. It isn't as mentally draining as a lot of jobs and I am quite blessed. Yet, sometimes I am made to feel insignificant, even though I make more money than some of my friends who are graduated with "real" jobs. Me referencing income is not to compare or "throw it back" but to question, if success isn't measured by money than what is it? It's also not meant to say that success is only measured by money because quite frankly I don't believe that. It's to make people think that maybe because you're in another place than I am, doesn't mean you're above me, just like money doesn't make anyone stand above you either. (Some could argue that but I feel like integrity is the only attribute to stand above the rest.) I pay all of my bills myself and here I stand feeling like a spec of dust in caparison to some of my peers. What is socially acceptable to be socially accepted? 

I hate that I feel the need to defend myself. I hate that I'm not exactly where I want to be, which is maybe the reason I feel the need to defend myself. I know one thing for certain, I am happy where I am. I am able to take care of myself, save money and work for a wonderful family. Quite frankly, I feel like friends, out of anyone, should stand by each other and not make each other feel that their value is in line with if they have a "real job" or have graduated college. (Obviously you shouldn't stand by a friend who is dealing meth and is making questionable life decisions.) I find both extremely important and I want to be there but in the mean time, I want to be looked at as everything I know that I am. I think I've grown to be a lot of admirable things even though I have a long way ahead.

I'm keeping my head held high, even in times I want to look at the ground, I know I can trust my feet to take me where I want to go.  

This past Saturday I went to see the actually very mixed reviews on X-Men: apocalypse.

 My initial thoughts prior to seeing their movie were that it most likely wouldn't be as good as the prior films but obviously I was going to see for myself. 

Initial thoughts after seeing the movie: THAT WAS A GREAT F&@$ING SUPER HERO MOVIE!! 

My after thoughts of my initial thoughts were: "WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ALL OF THESE MOVIE CRITICS? DID WE WATCH DIFFERNT MOVIES?"  *then my feelings were followed by confusion* 

What I liked:

• The storyline was easy to follow and made sense. 

• I understood what each and every mutant's perspective/purpose was

• Their powers were badass/consistent 

Also, contrarily to many of the complaints held for the overall purpose of the evil Apocalypse, it rang pretty clear to me. I don't understand the confusion here? He thought of himself as a God thus wanted to rule the world and remove the power away from the "weak." Seems pretty simple and makes sense since he came from a period where those in power where looked upon as Gods. (Egyptian period) So, I absoulty liked the performance of Apocloypse and I enjoyed him as the villain. It may have come across "cheesy" to some because we can't really wrap our brain around someone truly believing they are God and it's a pretty balsy thing to say. However, he could back up whatever he spoke. I sure as hell wouldn't mess with him. His power is undeniable. 

What I loved: 

•Quick Silver seemed to be generally the overall winner of the film. His light humor and the incredibly shot scenes made him the star of the show. 

• The fighting scenes. I never sat there like, "Seriously, this is so pointless." Everything served a purpose. And it was brilliant to watch! They made me feel like a kid again, wishing I had some sort of super power. 

•Magneto. For one Michael Fassbender was just brilliantly casted. He can do no wrong in my eyes. *SMALL SPOILER* In the forest after his wife and child were killed, he takes the necklace off of his daughter and shoots it through all of the officers necks who took part in the killing was simply again, bad ass. 

•All of the new cast (minus one that I'll explain in a minute.) Such as Gene Grey, Cyclops and Storm. Great performances! 

• The overall movie I just simple loved. 

What I didn't care for: 

For the first time it was actually hard for me to come up with things I didn't care for. 

•Psylocke. Played by Olivia Munn. I'm not sure if was the performance or just how oversexulized she was but it rubbed me the wrong way. She was just sort of there for me flipping around and whipping her laser rope around. Meh.

•uhhhhhhh maybe the makeup could slightly have been changed up for apocalypse? I'm reaching here. It honestly didn't bother me too much. 

I don't know what it was or if I'm a little biased because I've always been a major X-Men fan but I really enjoyed this movie. I wouldn't say it's better than X-Men: Days of future past because let's be honest that was setting the bar  extremely high. However, I wouldn't say it was even a whole grade below the last film it was a great third installment. For the life of me I won't understand all of the critics hate or dislike for it but that's okay. To me this film brought back (for me) what I feel super hero movies have been missing (honestly I'm only comparing to Captain America: Civil War) and that's a clear motive of what they stand for, consistent powers that actually remain the same or grow throughout the movie and that feeling of "I wanna be a fricken Super Hero!" Civil War lacked that for me. But I'll save that review for another time. 

Overall Grade: B+ 

With my high praise throughout the article most would think I would give a sold A (I'm assuming) but I don't want to devalue my scale because I reserve A grade films for films that absolutely move me. 

Thanks for tuning in to "Jen's Movie Reviews" until next time! Xo

However, it's inevitable, this getting older each year thing. So, I'm gonna make the best of it. 

Each year I tell myself I'm going to do things to step out of comfort zone. Most of them never actually get accomplished because it's easier to settle where you're comfortable. Being vulnerable is terrifying yet rewarding. 

So, I'm making a list of 23 things I want to accomplish while I'm still twenty-three because screw you blink 182! I want people to like me! 

1) Sing in public. 

2) Write more! (Possibly publish a work)

3) Work out consistently.  

4) Take a cooking class. 

5) Save money. 

6) Take a coding class. 

I'm not like some tech genius or anything but I'd love to be mildly tech inclined! Everything these days is computer based and learning some of those skills will also be interesting for myself (for sure stepping out of my realm of conform) but also useful thing to know about. Karlie Kloss, (a super successful model and also apart of Taylor Swifts girl squad. LoL. She should totally put that on a resume. I'd give her the job right off the bat,) has a YouTube channel called "Klossy." I'm mildly obsessed with her and that's because she's brainy and intriguing. She has a program called "Koding with Karlie" or something along those lines, so it inspired me. 

7) Start a weekly YouTube channel with the boyfriend. 

8) Visit one state I've never been to. 

9) Watch a play/go to the theatre. 

10) Play the Piano More.

13) Cut my hair again.

15) Find a job I love.

16) Write letters to people I've lost contact with. 

I'm putting it on my list cause I've been wanting to for years now! I loved doing it when I was younger and haven't had he chance. There is literally a neighbor (across the street) who has a field of horses. If I'm desperate enough I'll just jump over the fence and hop on one. I'll most likely just ask first though. 

18) Move out of state. 

19) Take some sort of athletic/sport class. 

20) Learn how to play poker. 

22) Go Camping.

I love setting goals for myself, even if I don't always get to them all it makes me reflect on what I want to achieve for myself and always striving for better each year is always a great thing. Cheers to turning 23 this year and cheers to the hopes people will still like me even though twenty three truly isn't the most likable number. 

Xo 

Jen 

I have to admit I'm quite the fan of this holiday. I mean who wouldn't want an excuse to spend all day doing fun things with your best friends? The thing is, as dated and superficial as the holiday has become, the meaning behind it holds some weight. Celebrate the ones you love. So, my lova and I did just that. 

I have a little more time on my hands this semester, so I got a little carried away and went to planning. Men hate planning things (well at least mine hates making concrete decisions) so what better gift than making all the decisions for him?? I'm a keeper for sure. LOL. 

This is what I did... 

Now, I'm not here to show off my exceptional creative skills, I just want to share our day and maybe next year you can copy my ideas because you're less original. I'm sorry, my sarcasm can take over sometimes. This costed me a total of $26 for groceries but it was well worth it. 

I will never be that girl with seven planners for each day of the week but I know how to "cheat" my way into being organized. 

What I mean by that is, I basically just use other people's organizational ideas and use them when necessary. It's not something that comes extremely natural for me even though I love to be organized, I have to work at it. 

The hardest part is doing things right away. For example, I have an extreme hatred for hanging up my clothes. I can't tell you why, er- actually I can. I wait to do laundry until I have nothing to wear, so I have about five loads worth of clothes and then it takes me about two hours to sort through my clothes and hang them up. If I just did a little at one time, it would make my life a whole lot easier! 

So, my lack of natural talent for organization is where "to-do lists" come into play. I make a to-do list almost every week and without it, I wouldn't get things done. I like seeing with my eyes, what it is I need to do, so I'll actually do it. 

I'm always looking up ways of being more productive. One I came across, which has actually helped, is setting a timer for the things that are highest "priority" on my list that I need to get done in the day. 

I also came across, (surfing through Pinterest) free printable daily or weekly to-do lists! They just help organize your thoughts and look prettier than just jotting things down on a note pad. This way you can hang it up and look at it throughout the day. I have a link for a few I printed out and absolutely love!